Fitting in is one of the hardest things to do as a kid. What group am I in? Band, Orchestra, Athletes club or do you just hang around in the tumblr group where everyone acts more superior than they actually are and craze at fairy lights, flower crowns, instagram themes and exotic hair. Don't think Im hating on the so called Tumblr crowd because Im not. In my first year of middle school I hung around with that group and it was lively until I relised I didn't belong in that group. I didn't care for all the effortless looking pictures that would take hours to perfect. I didn't appreciate flower crowns and long stylish wool socks as much as the others, so I went on a different route. Next I moved onto the "Popular" group. Theese girls would flirt non stop with theese boys. Almost if it was like nearly impossible to stop. They would show off their booty to the boys and wear clothes tight. Some wore shirts that didn't fit so they would come out to be crop top. Keep in mind all these girls had less meat on them then a chip munk and had straight tamed hair. I just couldn't keep up with this anymore. I was a girl that had thick curly hair and a manly build. Wide shoulders and a wide rid cage I was not over weight but showing off my stomach wasn't an option in my mind or my mothers.
Now I'm in seventh grade and I'm right back at the popular group. I never really took a liking to math or instruments I would know I played the piano for six years and got no where.
Now in the summer of 2015 my family and I moved to Montana. This wasn't a ruff town or anything but it was not the city. I was used to charter school educate and I definitely didn't experience any fowl language at my school but here was a whole different story. I was the new kid in a grade of five thousand or more seventh graders and just my luck I ended up in the same place last time. The populars. This nice girl offered for me to sit with her at lunch so I took it because for the first and second day of school I was sitting silently at a table with emo and goths and nose pickers. After a few weeks the four girls told me applarently I was in their group I took it. These people weren't bad but the actions that they took made me very unconfortable. Two of the girls in the group made out with their boyfriends every single day. In there minds maybe they thought it was ok for a tweleve year old to have their first,second, third and fourth kiss in one day. But to me it was almost as bad as breaking the law. Heck I was confused. They would use fowl language all the time. Almost as bad words was another language, and I regret to say that they rubbed off on me. I began to say the f word once in a while and one day it came to me. On a Wednesday one of my friends started a food fight, so I left and went out side to avoid the trouble. Now after lunch I came back and the vice principal told everyone that sat at the table with them would have to stay and clean the cafeteria. They ditched me and I had to clean up the mess I had no part of. I cried on the inside and told myself in a stern voice. " You are a dogon goody two shoes you should not be cussing or getting in trouble" I relised I didn't want to hang with the wrong crowd and I ditched them. And thats where I am today. I have found some new friends and I can't wait until I get a best friend. But through out my life I have learned do not be deceived by how people act when they meet you the first time because truth is they are probably just faking so you like them and they pull you in. Today is a new start and Im going to have a good day and so should you. Find the people that laugh, and make fun of their selfs. You'll know who they are when the time comes. Be patient it could take years.
Young Love
I know Im not the only one when I say that love is confusing and a hassle. In middle school every one acts twice there age kissing, hugging, and holding hands with their girlfriend/boyfriend. If you're the kid in the group that is not allowed to date and does not care for it know you are not alone in this. The exact summary of middle school relation ships is liking someone for their looks, popularity, and depending on if the person likes you. Its insane how the economy circulates and relies on crushes and love to populate the world. Lets set the scene.
Here I am in the second week of school and my friends and I are talking about the cuttest guy in school and here you are thinking " Who is this person?" One friend comments that he is a real jerk but in the corner of your ear your other friends say Id still date him if he's hot. Are you ever the girl that stares at instagram twitter and other apps and comments on peoples looks? Don't feel like Im hating on that guys I'm not an alien. I do this all the time I see a cute boy on instagram and think girly things. But there is also a bad side my sister always comments on my friends. I would fcetime my These boys will take advantage and become jerks. Have you ever had someone tell you that they guy friends and overtime she would comment eww he's ugly. All I could think was screw you news flash you look even worse on a good day. That was harsh but that is how much I HATE those comments.Has anyone told you that they loved you? I did can you imagine in middle school someone commented that they loved you. Girls don't let this get to your head they don't because as soon as you reach school its going to be awkward and your friendship is ruended.
Be proud
It doesn't matter if you are socialy awkward, weird gay, or even popular. Every one is unique and not just the weird people. Don't keep your real you sucked inside a black hole of hope and despare.
Young Love
I know Im not the only one when I say that love is confusing and a hassle. In middle school every one acts twice there age kissing, hugging, and holding hands with their girlfriend/boyfriend. If you're the kid in the group that is not allowed to date and does not care for it know you are not alone in this. The exact summary of middle school relation ships is liking someone for their looks, popularity, and depending on if the person likes you. Its insane how the economy circulates and relies on crushes and love to populate the world. Lets set the scene.
Here I am in the second week of school and my friends and I are talking about the cuttest guy in school and here you are thinking " Who is this person?" One friend comments that he is a real jerk but in the corner of your ear your other friends say Id still date him if he's hot. Are you ever the girl that stares at instagram twitter and other apps and comments on peoples looks? Don't feel like Im hating on that guys I'm not an alien. I do this all the time I see a cute boy on instagram and think girly things. But there is also a bad side my sister always comments on my friends. I would fcetime my These boys will take advantage and become jerks. Have you ever had someone tell you that they guy friends and overtime she would comment eww he's ugly. All I could think was screw you news flash you look even worse on a good day. That was harsh but that is how much I HATE those comments.Has anyone told you that they loved you? I did can you imagine in middle school someone commented that they loved you. Girls don't let this get to your head they don't because as soon as you reach school its going to be awkward and your friendship is ruended.
Be proud
It doesn't matter if you are socialy awkward, weird gay, or even popular. Every one is unique and not just the weird people. Don't keep your real you sucked inside a black hole of hope and despare.
